Im Home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well guys im HOME!!!!!

As you know went in st james leeds on tuesday at 6.pm
what a experience that was no beds on ward 92 sent to 23 what a hell hole
that was
but any ways morning came wednesday woke up late nurse's had not got me preped for 9 o clock surgery so surgeons going mental
no time for a enema so straight to the bath a quick cat lick then shouted at because i said i was in a tissy because it was literally 5 mins after been woke up they where pushing me a bout come on come
i said hang on ive only just been woke up not my fault your running late

the reply was
well it's not as if you was scheduled for surgery was it!!!!
you was a last min push me in job

i wanted to shout and cry because i felt a burden

any hows got down to surgery no pre med because there was not enough time for that
so went down at 9.am so 3 1/2 hrs down in theatre and 4 hrs in recovery because my blood pressure was so low they were worried
hubby was frantic they never even let him know i was out of surgery so he thought something had gone wrong
any ways for the rest of my stay i stayed on ward 23 and treat like i was nt there

i dropped my tables i ended up crawling on the floor for them and they just walked by me,i was stuck at the wrong side of my bed no buzzer and a cafater attached to the side of the bed so couldnt move to the other side as they turned the lights off and said nite all

i was sat for 1 hr crying because i couldnt get back into bed until i woke a patient and she buzzed for me then they came to help me back into bed

i had to go to the loo for the first time on my own no one helped me and i nearly passed out then the same for my first bath on my own
its been hell i cried so much i didnt think it possible to have so much water in your body

people coming and going for a day ops then gone again within 4 to 6 hrs

i had no one to talk to about what i was feeling or anything i was so scared and lonely but any hows came home sunday afternoon

the op went great aparantly no complecations bladder and bowel all okay
consultants well chuffed they also took some what they called healthy tissue and sent for exam get those results on the 18th september at york if all okay then no radio or chemo (god willing )
i have had staples and i look like a cornish pasty top from under my bust line down to my nether regions it looks awful
but it will get better as it ages i should emagine
its the taken them out i am now worried about (lol)
but the biggest laught was when they said they was confused when they went in for the ovaries (lol) they could only find 1 (rofl )

they had never told me that they had removed 1 when i had a eggtopic pregnancy some 20 years ago (lol) no wonder ive been a bitch hubby said

but consultants could'nt believe how quickly i had got myself up and about and they even congratulated me on a remarkable turnround

if they only new how ill i felt and i just wanted to get home because it was the worst experience i have ever had to deal with in my entire life

i will never again go on ward 23 i dont care how desparate i am infuture i have never felt so neglected and abbandoned as i did those few days i was there

but at least it's done with now and i am home
hubby been an apsolute star he was there every day